PolyProse

I’m proud to say that I have recently begun creating my own life. The majority of the time, I reacted to what life threw at me. I continuously found myself struggling and maneuvering around opposition. Sometimes I fell and forgot how to stand up. But while crawling, I made decisions to regulate my future.

I’ve decided what fates I refuse and have created roadblocks to deter certain events. I’ve been far more aware of myself. I’ve dissected my thoughts to understand their origins and have questioned my actions or inactions. I’m far from perfect; more than likely, I’m just mediocre. I have no titles, riches, assets, or estates. Regardless, I’m happier than I used to be. Whatever label or category I fall into, I don’t care.

Ultimately, fate is a river that pushes and pulls regardless of the creatures in its current. We’re all blindly swept into an ocean of probability. That doesn’t stop me from building a boat and sailing so that I can better control my trajectory. I can build paddles to guard against unfavorable riptides. To some degree, I will always be a “reactionary” person, but I’m diligently “creating” my new circumstances.